the grief... it is good

It has been 10 years since Halo: Combat Evolved was first released. The other day I saw the anniversary edition, and I was like has it really been that long? I'm starting to feel old now. I mean, I probably have a few years left before my birthdays become more depressing than fun. Hitting the twentieth birthday milestone is gonna sting. I mean, I haven't even done anything worthwhile yet. It feels like all our lives we try so hard to grow up, that when we finally get there we just have no idea where we wanna go next.

Next year I'll be turning twenty. It usually won't be such a big deal and all, since ordinarily I don't usually give a fuck about my birthdays anyway. But since I'm born on he 29th of February, birthdays which are multiple of 4s are somewhat more special. When I found out that I might be spending my birthday in India (due to some army excercise), I was a little miffed. But then I was thinking, why do we place such import on our birthdays? And then I didn't really give a shite any more.

There is this song that we sing in the army when we march from point to point. It goes a little something like this:

Down by the river/ Took a little walk/ Ran into some terrorists

Ok that's about all you need to know about the song. I was thinking about how recent the song was, because it included the word terrorists. Which is fairly new in the adoption as the new face of the bad guy. Or at least I thought it was fairly new. Once again, my perception of time had failed me. It has been 10 years since 9/11. Somehow it seemed so recent. Maybe because the US is always making such a big deal out of it (don't get me wrong, it is a big deal. I'm just not sure it's that big a deal, if you know what I mean. Or maybe I'm just spouting gibberish now). Who knows.

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Seeing as how the year is ending, I think it's time for some New Year's resolutions. Not that I think they work. But hey. One can but try. So here goes:

1. Save more money. I have this financial scheme worked out, if only I would follow it.
2. Get off my lazy ass and learn to drive.
3. Do some proper college apps.
4. Write more.
5. Try to get a portfolio (this has been bothering me for the longest time, just that I'm too damned lazy to do anything about it).
6. Play less computer games. (Oh who am I kidding?)
7. Get a girlfriend. Or something approximate. Companionship maybe? (damn that makes me sound like I want to get a pet. Or that I'm turning gay.)
8. Forget. Just... forget. (C'mon it's been what, 1 year?!? actually more like 2)

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In other news, I just found this comic to be hilarious. I don't know why.